Houston We Have a Heartbeat

126 beats per minute and very loud! We didn't get to hear it for long, I could have sat there all day. We are very excited and relieved.

Say What?

Today at work one of my regulars said that I'm "Glowing." He doesn't even know I'm pregnant!! That was so nice, it really makes me feel better. It's been hard waiting to hear the heartbeat, and I'll take any reassurance at this point!

We have an ultra sound on Wednesday and it will be the first time we hear the heartbeat and see the baby. I'm so excited! This week has just been dragging by.

Eating food has been a little bit easier this week too. I've had a little bit of meat, but mainly stick to salads and and fruit.. and the occasional donut, thanks to Phil :)

MMMMmmmm

Phil just made me chocolate covered strawberries. I love him :)

7 weeks

* This week your baby's brain is growing at a mind-boggling 100 cells per minute within a see-through skull. If you could peer inside, you'd see those tiny brain cells growing and growing and growing (about as quickly as you feel like yours are shrinking and shrinking and shrinking with your "pregnancy brain"!). More high points include: Your baby's face is becoming more defined this week. A tiny mouth hole (which will be ready to wail before you know it!), tongue, nostrils and ear indentations are visible. His or her eyes are wide open, but he doesn't have irises (the colored part) yet. Baby's arm buds are growing. At this point they look more like microscopic ping-pong paddles than arms. Baby's leg buds are also forming and will look like tiny paddles by the end of the week.The umbilical cord—the connection between your baby and the placenta—is now visible.Your baby is now between 1/3 and 1/4 inch long—about the length of a Tic Tac and about as heavy as an eyelash. While that sounds tiny, he or she is approximately 10,000 times bigger than at conception. Crazy, huh?*

*3D Pregnancy

Life

Oh life. Sometimes it would be nice to just have some peace. We are so blessed to have this baby, I just want to make sure it has a life filled with the least amount of drama possible.

My grandma on my dad's side passed away. The funeral is Wednesday, and I have so much anxiety going into it. My husband has never met that side of my family and I was hoping my dad wouldn't be there, but just found out that he is already there. My grandmas death was so unexpected, we didn't even know she had cancer. The family said that she was supposed to be done with chemo, and she wasn't supposed to die. She was going to come visit us in February with my aunt. I haven't seen her since 2002 and didn't expect this to be the end. She was only 67.

I can't decide if I want to tell my dad I'm pregnant. I've done everything to forget him and to keep him out of my life. It's not hard, he wouldn't come around anyway. I just don't want him to know what he's missing. I don't want him to meet my husband. I don't want him to see that I'm happy because he doesn't deserve to feel like he had any part in it. He didn't raise me and all he ever brought was sadness and inconsistency.

If there is anything I want for my baby, it's a happy family. I want it to feel loved and cared for and to never question it's own self worth. I want it to know that no matter what it can always rely on us and we will be there through the good times and the bad as loving supportive parents. We'll be there for the first steps, the first words, the first day of school, the first sports games, the first love, the first heartbreak, the first apartment, graduation day, wedding day, each birthday of their own children and everything in between.

It's only Monday and I can tell this is going to be a long week.