40+ weeks... still pregnant

*How far along?: 40 Weeks

*Total weight gain: Still 18lbs from pre-pregnancy weight

*How big is baby?: Around 7lbs -7.5lbs hopefully

*Maternity clothes?: I'm mainly in pjs and maternity clothes

*Sleep?: Having a really tough time falling asleep and then staying asleep.

*Best moment this week?: Probably the pedicure I got today.

*Movement?: She's kicking my ribs right now. I think she's confused on which way is out.

*Food cravings?: Creamy pie

*Labor signs?: I'm still having some twinges and pains, but nothing exciting. My boobs have really been hurting today.

*Belly button in or out?: Still the same.

*What I miss: Falling asleep without laying awake for hours first, staying asleep, and sleeping on my stomach.

*What I'm looking forward to: Going into labor or at least being dilated more than .5cm on Monday at our next appointment.

*Milestone: Making it past my due date.

Laundry Day: Cloth Diapers

Cloth Diaper Storage

Inserts

Pockets

AIO's

BumGenius Organic One Size AIO

BumGenius One Size Pockets, Happy Heinys Pockets, Monkey Snuggles Pockets, Blueberry Pocket Diapers

COVERS

Bummies Cover

Etsy Seller Crazywonderful

Etsy Seller Olivejanes

Thirsties Covers

Random Diapers - Fitteds & AIO's

Etsy Seller Whamykidz (AIO)

Thirsties Fitteds

Etsy Seller qtbunns (AIO)

Muttaqin One Size

Etsy Seller Sparkliestar83: DiapeyDooDiaper Fitteds

24 Unbleached Prefolds

39 Weeks

Telling Maisie to talk her cousin out of my belly:


Maisie sending her left over labor vibes:


*How far along?: 39 Weeks

*Total weight gain: Still 18lbs from pre-pregnancy weight

*How big is baby?: Around 7lbs -7.5lbs hopefully

*Maternity clothes?: I'm mainly in pjs and maternity clothes

*Sleep?: It happens.

*Best moment this week?: Celebrating Labor Day at our neighborhood cookout.

*Movement?: Not so much. She moves, but the space is tight.

*Food cravings?: Mainly just craving drinks; Apple Cider, water, lemonade, tea, coffee, etc.

*Labor signs?: I have some twinges and aches, but no real signs that I know of (unless being impatient, exhausted, and irritable are labor signs...)

*Belly button in or out?: Still the same.

*What I miss: My body just being mine.

*What I'm looking forward to: Our 40 week Dr. appointment is tomorrow and hopefully I'll get some good news.

*Milestone: Every day feels like one big. giant. milestone.

New Worries

As Lillian gets bigger and her due date draws closer, I can't help but find myself in a constant state of worry about her health, giving birth, and all the possibilities that can arise with a new baby.

I'm worried that she will not make it to her due date. I'm absolutely terrified that something will happen between now and then that takes her life from me. I worry that if she does make it, something will go wrong with the labor and the doctors will rush her out of the room and I'll be left there not knowing what's happening and if she's OK. I'm worried that if we have a good delivery and stay at the hospital, we'll take her home and then wake up to find her not breathing because of something they missed in the hospital, or something that didn't show up in the ultrasounds. I just keep playing all of the possibilities over and over in my mind and every day pray that my water will break so we can have her here with us and do everything we can to keep her safe.

I realize these are all things that I shouldn't be stewing over in my mind. It can't be healthy to be in a constant state of anxiety but it's so hard to not think about the reality of how fragile life is, and how quickly it can be taken from us.

38 Weeks and Comparison Photos

8 weeks

38 weeks

*How far along?: 38 Weeks
*Total weight gain: 18lbs from pre-pregnancy weight
*How big is baby?: Around 6.5lbs
*Maternity clothes?: I'm mainly in pjs and maternity clothes
*Sleep?: We have been using a new box fan by the bed and it lulls me to sleep!
*Best moment this week?: Setting the bassinet next to the bed :) Can't wait to put a baby in there! Also, Darin and Misty had their baby Friday. He's a cutie!
*Movement?: She's getting really cramped in there. Not a lot of room to move.
*Food cravings?: I have been a bottomless pit this week. I eat everything!
*Labor signs?: I've leaked milk 2 nights this week! She's also dropped.
*Belly button in or out?: Still the same.
*What I miss: Being busy
*What I'm looking forward to: Meeting my daughter.
*Milestone: We are 100% finished preparing and are just waiting for her to arrive now that she's dropped. ::please come soon Lillian::